I wanted to prove to Daddy that I am totally different from other girls or other women. Daddy didn't want me to go to school because he told me that I would just only be marrying a man at a very young age.
I wanted to fulfill what I had promised to you when I was a child.
I also wanted to fulfill what I promised to our GOD when you died that I would take care of the family that you and Daddy had left behind.
It is very difficult to achieve something here on earth, mother.
It is more difficult today than yesteryears.
I'm so glad you had not experienced these hardships much.
But so sad for our family's plight.
I did my very best, mother,
to keep this family together!
But money and ideologies make families separated,
as well as dreams and desire.
It's difficult to unite darkness and brightness.
It's difficult to mix crookedness with righteousness.
I dreamed of having our school.
First, it was for Novy.
But Novy wasn't good enough to handle,
the million peso-capital school that Bernard had put up for Novy through my knowledge and assistance.
And the worst thing of all was,
Novy didn't recognize my effort of putting up that school,
and told me to go away because it was not my own school,
and that I had no money in it.
So I went away. You knew that because you were still alive that time. And you even told me that I should not get whatever was meant for Novy. You knew it to yourself that you always gave Novy the privileges. I think you should be alive to see what happened to MY HOUSE AND LOT in Luzon which you GAVE TO NOVY AS AN INHERITANCE WHILE YOU WERE STILL ALIVE AND I AM STILL ALIVE. NOVY HAS NEGLECTED EVERYTHING AFTER SHE HAD RECEIVED MORE THAN HALF A MILLION PESO INHERITANCE. SHE ELOPED WITH A MAN TOGETHER WITH HER DAUGHTER, HAVY MAGSINO. If you just let the house and lot in my hands, I COULD HAVE MADE IT BIGGER AND MORE BEAUTIFUL TODAY, AND I MIGHT NOT BE RENTING HERE 12,000PHP A MONTH. See. I AM NOT GREEDY. I GAVE EVERYTHING YOU LEFT TO MY SIBLINGS. I GAVE EVERYTHING BERNARD HAD LEFT TO MY SIBLINGS, TOO, AND TO EDGAR REYNO....LEAVING ME A VERY SMALL AMOUNT....AND NOTHING!
Then while I was dying in 2002,
I realized that the knowledge, skills, and talents GOD has given to me would be in vain,
if I would die without fulfilling my dreams.
So in 2004, I started my tutorial services even if I was very, very sick with Bernard as my FIRST ever Math tutor earning 200PHP per hour from our first client who was a college student that time.
These things are NOT known to you anymore. You died in 2000.
And in 2006, Bernard gave me 24,000PHP to rent this place where I am right now so I could put up my OWN training centre. Bernard bought 3 desk top computers that time amounting to 45,000PHP. With the computers and the place, without even an internet connection and other things that I have right now, I gathered all my strength to establish this centre. With GOD's assistance, here it is now.....
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And today, May 7th, 2012, I discovered that yahoo.com.ph has already included my name in their search engine. If you were alive, you could search my name now, Mama, and you would be surprised. This is what Bernard wanted me to do, to be known so that I could easily do the marketing. Bernard even told me to gain 1,000,000 people in my friends list, so I can easily disseminate information.
I have been trying my best, mother, to make you proud of me.
In fact, I have tried my best to help my siblings. Marivic and Arthuro are in good conditions while Lilibeth and Novielyn are in their worst situations.
I can't do anything for them now, mother. They don't listen to me anymore. When we were still kids, they used to listen to me. But now, they don't wanna listen anymore. Though they are stubborn, I still don't wanna give in my power being your eldest child. And I don't wanna give in the duties that our Father has bestowed upon me. I will never surrender LIKE WHAT YOU DID. I told you NOT TO SURRENDER YOUR MOTHERHOOD, BUT YOU GAVE THEM IN INCLUDING YOUR LIFE. YOU GOT TIRED BEING OUR MOTHER! AND YOU LEFT ME THE HARDSHIPS AND THE HARDEST THINGS TO DO.
Good thing, Mama, is I never failed you. I helped Marivic to be brought to your place in Mt. Heights, and I also helped Arthuro to fix his life and his family's.
I wanna give my presents to you now, Mama....
Para sa iyo.... para tu.... my siblings whom I helped to have a good life...and the NUMBER ONE IN THE LIST IS BERNARD. You knew it that Bernard couldn't be a licensed electrical and mechanical engineer without me sending him to school...but even if I did all the sacrifices, I DIDN'T GRAB BERNARD'S PROPERTY AND MONEY WHEN HE DIED. I NEVER BECAME GREEDY AND NEVER WILL.
I have tried to be like me today.
I hope your spirit is pleased.
GLORY BE TO THE FATHER IN HEAVEN!
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